I Feel Like . . .

I feel like seeing you, but you aren’t visible

I feel like listening to you, but you aren’t audible

I feel like talking to you, but you aren’t listening

I feel like sharing with you, but you didn’t care

I feel like holding you, but you aren't present

I feel like hugging you, but you resist

I feel like being with you, but I am alone

Waiting . . .

Within minutes of the downpour, the rain had left me completely wet, when I was dry from within. I was emptied of all that I had. The clouds too desiccated and slowly parted ways paving the path for the sun to take the centre stage. Droplets of water shone like tiny pearls. The sunlight warmed my shivering body. Even the canopy of trees could not resist some of the rays coming from above. Gloomy rainy morning had transformed into sunny afternoon. I was still waiting with a hope to see her again. She had promised to be back soon.

The shadows started to become long and fade by the day.  The quite environment had turned into a noisy neighbourhood, as the hustling birds chirped raucously announcing their arrival back home. It was getting cold by the minute. I tucked my hands in the pockets and rested at the place where we had parted. I kept rubbing my hands against each other regularly to keep myself warm. Night had dawned and there was still no sight of her. The din had been replaced with the owls hooting, squeaking and creaking of crickets and others. It was a long night listening to the different sounds of the nature. The unobtrusive sounds of the night have gradually died down. The huge dark orange ball started to emerge from the horizon. It brought warmth and comfort. I eagerly looked around if she was just trying to play hide and seek with me. I looked everywhere possible, but she wasn’t there. In the deepest of my heart I knew she would come. A new day has begun, but my wait has been old as I kept looking in the woods waiting for her. 

A Walk in the Woods . . .

Birds chirped as they left their homes. Squirrels and lizards scurried through the trees. The breeze carried the fragrance of the wet soil across the forest. There was a distant roar of the waterfall. The droplets of water glistened in the sunlight that timidly sneaked its way through the thick canopy formed by the trees. Early morning drizzle had moistened the dry leaves lying around. Some leaves which dared the morning drizzle, quivered in the breeze. They whimpered as we trampled them mercilessly without paying much heed to their existence. 

She walked in the front, as I followed her close enough to feel her presence. She was glowing as the sunlight lit her skin. She was looking unblemished, flawless and as fresh as the surroundings around. Her fragrance filled my lungs. Her hair bounced on her shoulders as she walked carefully trying to avoid the roots and fallen branches. I could not resist myself from being cast under the spell of her beauty.

The nature was exhilarating. We did not speak much before she tripped over suddenly. Before she could fall I held her hand and helped her recover. She smiled as if she knew that I would not let her down. As we resumed our walk through the woods, she held my hand and walked. I hesitated; she held it even firmly, looked at me and smiled. She made me feel comfortable. She moved closer and put my arm around her. I could feel her body against mine as we slowed down our pace.

She started to run. As I looked up, I established the reason. He was standing at the far end, probably waiting for her. I was knocked out before I could savour the moment completely. I looked helplessly as she parted from me. I could not help but watch her just go away, only wishing she would stop in her tracks and turn. The vision started to get hazy as the water became too heavy for the eyes to hold on longer. They synthesised with the rain as both came down at the same time, cloaking the weak moments. I don’t know if she ever looked back; I closed my eyes hard as the water from within merged with the rain outside.

We Fought Hard . . .

She ran like she ran for life. I had never seen being as fast as I continued to chase her. I was closing in on her when she did the unexpected. She turned sharply and flung it hard at me. Even before I could come to screeching halt, the violent blow took me by surprise. It shook me up a bit as she took one more hit at me before I recovered. I was now two strikes behind and sought revenge. I ran even harder to catch up with her. We exchanged numerous blows before I sensed her body giving away. Eyeing the opportunity, I went for the knock out. She fell on the bed as the cotton from the pillows was all around.  I fell onto the bed next to her as we laughed till we cried. We looked at each other and exchanged few things we could never say. I put my hand around her as she hugged me tight.

Sans Her

The knob turned and she was in the doorway smiling broadly, with open arms. As soon as I entered the room, she held me in warm embrace. She kissed delicately and made me comfortable. Her hug flushed out the day’s labour. I could feel her smooth fingers as I placed mine against hers.  She lay close to me, resting on my shoulder and playfully kissed the fingers. Her soft lips brushed against the fingers. She looked into my eyes lovingly and whispered in my ears. She was mine, as we lay there in each other’s arms.

The door clicked opened. Room lit brightly as I switched the lights on. The door closed behind me as I walked into the other room. It was empty. There was no life without her. Living without her was like living without life. 


I was alone and lonely.

The Friendly Valley

The landscape was covered by lush green carpet. Even though there was no uniformity in the thickness, it certainly looked bright and even darker in patches. Few trees announced to the fellow comrades of their height by standing out tall enough to be visible for miles. The invisibility cloak of the constantly moving clouds hid some of the hills, occasionally providing an opportunity for a quick glance. The altitude of the place made the place cooler than expected even during the summer. Sun light was welcome as it was soothing on the skin for a change. I was innately exultant experiencing the freshness of the nature.  I felt alive as I took deep breath and filled my lungs with the fresh air.

Surprisingly enough, dark clouds invaded and were slowly engulfing the bright skies. I could see their armies marching across the vast green cover. The hills too were timid to stand up for them. The valley whose depth I could not fathom looked even more sinister. The air got even cooler and I could feel the skin react to the sudden change in the climate. I rubbed my palms on my arms to generate some warmth. Innumerous thoughts about her crossed my mind with sporadic break of thoughtlessness.

I reflected on the instances, when she simply hugged me. I held her in my arms, and sometimes she tried to play mischievous with me.  She kissed me teasingly and sometimes passionately. In some situations, she would just simply smile and make my day.  I was full of her. These thoughts just made me smile for a minute before the dark clouds completed their invasion and started to exercise their might. The heavy drops of water woke me up from the dream and reminded me of the message that I received a while ago. Its contents shook my roots. Like a news ticker, my mind started played the contents “You are nothing more than a friend to me”.

By the time I reacted to the change in the climate, I was drenched completely. I could not make out the difference between the water coming from above and from within me. The heart was doing extra work pumping out extra blood to squeeze out the excess water from the body in tears. The water was making the vision blurred. The valley looked friendly all of a sudden with its outstretched arms. I needed a friend and I found one. I just closed my eyes hard, switching off the ticker and it was silent all around. 

The Promise

She said we would meet soon to which I replied in affirmative. She kept her side of promise. We did meet again. She was there standing at the door for me. She was dressed in white and looked ravishingly beautiful. The dress fitted her perfectly accentuating her curves. I was living a dream. I could not believe the moment had actually materialized. Guess my heart got used to the extra work load, as it started punching its chamber violently the moment she appeared in front of me.

I straight away took her into my arms without any delay. She smiled and reciprocated as she too held me tight. She was there in my arms and I was in no hurry to let her go. She was the drug that would keep a check on my heart beat. I let her go only after the medication had its complete effect. I looked into her eyes, pushing away the strands of hair blocking her vision. They conveyed a lot without even letting a syllable out of her mouth. My palms enclosed her face. As we got closer, she twitched and held me tight. We realized that we were more than friends.

We spent quality time with each other, occasionally expressing our love without saying it loud. Sometimes, when things are on a roll, you would need to expect the unexpected. She opened up few delicacies that were created by her own hands and served them for dinner. She not only fulfilled her promise, but also made it very memorable. The dinner was lip smacking and finger licking. As I was busy savoring and devouring the food, she slowly held me from behind. I could not have asked for more. Tears clouded my eyes for her act of love. I kissed her gently expressing my delight. The parting was pleasingly painful. I didn’t want to go, but I had to. I too had promised her something before leaving, and I am frantically waiting for the day to keep up mine.